Agreed on Kill Bill… a lot of people say their favorite of his are other movies but I think the Tarantino fans agree about Kill Bill. It is campy and melodramatic but epic.

It is such an interesting movie I think because it skates a unique line between ridiculous Hollywood summer blockbuster spectacle and a traditional story of revenge. The world he creates is saccharine/artificial but the story is something so simple and basic but we connect with on primal level. Going from a tragedy to overcoming incredible odds through skill she gets everything she wants in the end.

The emotions are so basic almost any viewer can connect with them. Binding those two elements together feels disjointed visually but also natural internally. There is magic in film when a director can do that in an elegant and graceful way. On top of all that the visual style, camerawork, sets, music, film grain, pacing, special effects, sound effects, lighting, casting are all excellent.

My only issue with the movie is how at the end during Bill’s Superman speech, he says that Superman is the only true superhero. He is Superman first and Clark Kent second, whereas other heroes are normal people with superhero alter-egos. He then specifically calls out Bruce Wayne/Batman. Not true, Batman thinks of himself as Batman, Bruce Wayne is the fake persona. It is what make Batman and Superman such great frenemies, they are two sides of the same coin, one of hope and one despair but still deciding to be good. They both have legacies their parents put on them that they are responsible for living up to without their parent’s guidance.

It’s a small thing but it bugs me every time.

Usually I am just laying there for several hours in the dark before I fall asleep.

I am trying to get away from that up all night doing nothing but cheap dopamine addictions.

Those teary eyes… I feel attacked.

Honestly though, I’ve been working on it.

I try to go to bed between 9:30-10:30. I’m pretty successful at that most of the time but the problem is I am so used to getting only a few hours of sleep I wake up around 3-5am and then can’t get back to sleep until 6 or 7am, which is too late. I either have to stay up and be exhausted for the day or roll the dice on a nap before the alarm clock goes off.

Lion’s Mane supplement or just straight up Lion’s Mane mushrooms?

How did they end up helping? I hadn’t heard of this use of them before.

I’d like to know a bit more if you don’t mind. I’m sure some others in this post may want to know as well due to the topic.

I’m a bit of an amateur mycologist and grow Lion’s Mane from time to time.

Congrats btw! Don’t discount your own effort by attributing your ass getting saved by Lion’s Mane. You put in work too I’m sure. Hope you also recognize that.

True as well, it is most likely a combination of many things, both nature and nurture related.

When is there ever a single cause for a behavior when we are studying a complex disorder with decades of unique life experiences layered on top of each person that affect the symptoms of that disorder?

There are an infinite number of variations and to boil it down to one thing is not helpful.

I didn’t intend for my statement to infer that, apologies if it did.

My guess is because we have to develop creative problem solving skills in order to mask symptoms to avoid the stigma of ADHD or accomplish a similar level of productivity or accomplishment in work/life as those without ADHD.

Creativity and ADHD/neurodiversity has long been associated with each other but I don’t think the reason is predominately due to the brain wiring but more due to the environment in which we live. It is a coping mechanism for living in a world not built to accommodate.

Dude, no way!

Thank you for this. I love this story but could never find it again after I read it the first time!

So grateful for the link to this, thanks again stranger!

From what I understand, if this technology would have been built out during his time then humanity most likely wouldn’t have developed our semi-processor/radio/computer/telephone technology because the wireless transmission of electricity would have prevented the earliest versions of that tech to work and we wouldn’t have been able to follow that line of technology progression.

During CoVid some friends and I had a virtual movie club called CoVideo Club where we would meet up in VR each week to watch a movie in a virtual movie theater together.

Over the 200 movies we watched we screened all of the Predator movies. I picked the movies and sometimes I wouldn’t tell others beforehand what we were going to be watching during our next session. None of my friends follow upcoming movies so they had no idea about Prey, what it was or when it was coming out. It had been months since we had watched the last Predator movie so when I screened Prey they had no idea it was a Predator movie. It came out the day before we screened it so there wasn’t much talk about it in the media yet.

The slow realization they had that we weren’t watching a western but a sci-fi horror movie set in the Predator universe was fun to sit back and watch play out.

I haven’t seen Prey since but if I remember correctly the first time it dawned on them that this might be a Predator movie was the first time you see the fluorescent yellow glowing blood. They went wild.

Yeah, it makes sense in retrospect that emotion would be considered a sense. I have never met, still to this day, anyone else who has emotion>color but I have met other synesthetes.

I cried tears of joy once I discovered some other people writing about their experience with emotion>color for the first time. Emotion being the trigger is somewhat rare in synesthesia but color as the response is the most common of responses. My understanding and exposure to synesthesia was that it worked in conjunction with the traditional 5 senses of touch, taste, sound, sight and sound smell but that is not the case. There are spacial, emotional, personality, temperature and several others beyond that that are also considered to be a part of synesthesia now.

It is hard to classify because the responses are subjective to the individual. My color to emotion pairings are unique to me as well as how it presents in my vision though some of the color pairings are somewhat universal at a basic level.

Thanks for the sympathy but I see it as a gift. Early life sucked as it was very isolating. With my pattern recognition autistic brain that tracked body movements and emotions of others to try and mask better it made it very easy to figure out when adults or others were lying to me or just acting out of character. I had a HUD that would discolor them. I am fantastic at poker but never play with friends or family, while I can’t see their cards I know a bluff without much effort and can run the numbers in my head to make a pretty accurate guess of the probability of their hand, especially with Texas Hold’m.

The benefit, now that I don’t mask any of this as an adult is immense. I gravitate towards honest and open people. I make friends easily as I can cut through the BS but the majority of my friends I’ve had for several decades. I am very lucky to have such deep and long lasting friendships. Narcissists are a problem for me though, I take others at face value and they tend to mask their intentions well, like the antithesis of me. It is kinda weird. I have to be morally balanced in my daily life; kind, honest and fair or else my worldview gets colored in a depressing/angry/resentful or other negative tint. I can get overwhelmed during extremely distressing events and depending on how long those events last for, like a parent in decline or dying, then I can be overwhelmed by it for months or years. It’s better now that I have a more clear understanding and various coping mechanisms.

It all takes balance, like with anyone, I just feel the highs and lows more acutely because so much of my attention has to be focused on it. Once I was able to accept it, figured out how it functioned, worked on coping mechanism and sought therapy for emotional regulation then life became pretty great. Happiest I’ve ever been. Wouldn’t give any of it up for any price but it was a tough road.

It’s genetic too, part of what drove me to figure it all out and use it to my advantage was when I decided to have kids. If they got it then I needed to be able to not alienate them like I was but to help guide them in whatever way it presented in them so they could skip past the several decades I went through to get to the good parts.

Some people still think it is weird and treat me as such but that’s ok, can’t be friends with everyone.

Apologies for the info dump, it’s been one of those morning where I am avoiding doing the things I should be doing today but I figured someone might want to hear more about it in case they have similar sensory stuff going on or know someone who does. It was a comment like this in a random thread on a random forum from a random person where I discovered Emotion>Color synesthesia was a thing. Figured I’d try to pay it forward on here in case someone needs it.

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Yeah, I think it is common in some regards.

The current prevailing theory on how synesthesia happens in the human brain says that everyone is born with these connections but in early development the synaptic connections are sheared or closed off. Like how your brain will close off bad memories or certain emotions for trauma victims. It is believed to be a similar mechanism. The connection is still there but it is shut down and inaccessible. When people take hallucinogens and see colors or geometric shapes in their vision that is the drug reopening those closed synaptic connections temporarily.

The degree in which synaptic shearing happens or which synaptic connections get sheared are different for every person. So there could be, like, a bell curve, where some people have more connections throughout their life than others but the majority tend to group towards the middle of the curve. For mirror touch, and several other types of synesthesia, it tends to be a bit of a spectrum of those who don’t experience it to those who experience it acutely. Even then there are those who may experience it internally, like intellectually know there is a sensation and those who have some sort of physical reaction. Synesthesia presents itself in wildly different ways among those with the condition. There are many triggers and many different kinds of responses. If you have one type you are 50% likely to have 2 or 3 different types of synesthesia.

There are two main tranches that people with synesthesia fall into in regards to the affects of synesthesia; people either think everyone has the same thing and so they don’t talk about it or, once they do talk about it, discover not everyone experiences the same thing they do, or not to the degree in which they do. If the synesthetic response is strong, hard to ignore and not something people are used to hearing about then the synesthete (a person with synesthesia) tends to not talk about their condition due to fear of being ostracized or sent to a psychiatrist and etc.

I have Emotion>Color Synesthesia, along with several other types (including mirror touch). So my emotions present as colors projected into my vision. When talking about it as a kid I was sent to a psychiatrist as my parents thought I was making it up or crazy. I was put on anti-depressants which, surprise surprise, dulled my emotions and made the emotional>color synesthesia less pronounced but still there. Emotion wasn’t considered as a “sense” in the traditional meaning so it took a long time for me to figure out that it was synesthesia and how mine worked. Only in the later years of the 2000s did synesthesia start to come back into scientific research circles and with the internet it made it possible for edge cases, like myself, to start making contact with each other.

If you want to learn more about it then the book from 2009 called “Wednesday is Indigo Blue” is a great starting point and kinda spearheaded synesthesia coming back into public discourses. It is not a long book, gives a good overview of the condition and its many variations but is also approachable and not too heady.

Piercing, scars or any other noticeable thing like that in someone else gives me a sensation on the same spot on my body if I see/recognize/notice it. If someone gets punched, kicked or injured in a movie or such I also can get a similar sensation but to a lower degree if I frame it in my mind that it is fake, if someone visibly breaks a bone or gets injured in a sports game then that has a much more distinct, acute and entirely unpleasant sensation. I don’t watch much sports to keep that from happening.

I believe it is a type of synesthesia called Mirror Touch.

Yeah bud, I totally would do that.

I think it is common to have deep feelings for non-romantic partners, friends or family that would be strong enough to compel someone to avenge them if they were hurt or killed.

I’m not saying anything is wrong with you, we all experience our emotions and perceive the world around us and the people in it different, but as another poster said, you may want to talk to a therapist. Your post indicates you may have some stuff you can get help with that may expand your empathy towards others. Not an accusation but some friendly advice.

Personally, I had a lot of anger when I was younger that severely limited my empathy towards others. If I could have sorted it out in therapy a couple decades earlier than I did I know my life would have been better earlier. The connections I now have with me family and friends is deeper than I once thought possible.

It was hard to face my past and who I thought I was but once I did let go of all of that baggage I had much more space within myself for others.

Fixed, thanks again!

Oh, thanks so much for the heads up. I didn’t know that!

Yeah, when I went through school they didn’t teach it this why but that is what I taught myself, much more simple math (+ & - with no * or \) in the same amount of steps.

Is that what they call Common Core? I’ve heard the term but didn’t know how it changed the method of teaching math.

Leave it to my AuDHD brain to figure out a less strenuous path to the same endpoint…

I wonder if this is an anxiety source for ASD/ADHD/AuDHD people. Having to constantly re-map lessons taught to fit my neurodivergent brain that it now feels like the entire neurotypical world is gaslighting neurodivergents.

Funny thing is, he does have a helicopter and his helicopter pilots license. Which he got in case of emergencies. After the LA fires this year I saw an interview with him where he was talking about it.

He was making fun of himself because he got his license and the helicopter to flee things like the LA fire but helicopters are expensive and he couldn’t afford more than a 2-seater so he can’t take his whole family if he ever had to really use it.

So my comment was based off a real thing he may say as to why he needed the money.

Tbh though, I could see him going with that third one.

I feel this comment acutely.

Thank You!!

Agreed about 90s Chappelle… I think he would have had more empathy and understanding in selecting gigs than current Chappelle.